Cultivating Our Best Self

Posted by on Oct 7, 2013 | 3 Comments


I deleted my Yelp review Saturday night.  My husband and I had gone out to dinner on Friday evening and were treated horribly by the hostess and had mediocre food (and that’s being generous).  Livid and still feeling incredulous over spending money for such a bad experience I whipped out a scathing review first thing the next morning.  “That’ll teach ’em!”  I thought.

I felt vindicated.

For about two minutes.

Then I felt horrible.

The thing is, I teach the importance of driving constructive action.  I teach the importance of stepping into another person’s shoes.  I teach others to focus on making a positive impact.

All the things I teach, I had ignored.  Boo.

I felt it.  That icky feeling that you get when you know you’ve said something you shouldn’t say.  When you’ve crossed your own line.  All day long, I couldn’t shake it.  And  the irony, that I had just written a blog about giving constructive feedback, didn’t escape me.

Now, did I have the right to share my experience with all the Yelp readers?  Sure.  And some might even argue that I would be doing a service for all the people who might potentially dine at that establishment.  After all, I’ve personally come to rely on reviews to make my own buying decisions.

But here’s what I also know to be true:

1.  The restaurant is located in a small town – there aren’t hoards of potential customers who might be willing to over-look a bad review.

2.  My one-star rating would take the average rating down considerably.

3.  Bad reviews, like the one I put out there, could potentially put a small business out of business.

4.  The hostess could have been having a bad night.  Could have had personal issues that she wasn’t dealing with effectively.  I could have triggered something that had nothing to do with me.  The hostess, after all, was human.

5.  The hostess could have triggered something in me that made me over-react to the situation and experience it far worse than it actually was.  I, after all, am human.

6.  I know that what I stand for is connecting people to the best of who they are, and writing that review wasn’t consistent with that.

The “icky feeling” I got, was because of #6.  When we do something, no matter how justified, that goes against the core of who we are, we feel it.  We can’t escape ourselves.  We know when we can do better.

Knowing what we stand for doesn’t (unfortunately) ensure that we’re always going to act in alignment.  As human beings, we react to the world around us, often without thinking.  But knowing what we stand for makes it possible for us to course-correct.  To clean it up.  To do better.  To try something different.  More constructive.  To cultivate our best selves.

Because our “best self” doesn’t feel icky.


©OnStage Leadership, 2013

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  1. Cindy Davis
    October 8, 2013

    “Cultivating Your Best Self” is a journey not a flick of the switch. More importantly you caught yourself; and next time you may give yourself the space to do better the next time.

  2. Kimberly
    October 8, 2013

    Isn’t that the truth, Cindy!

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